Tuesday, May 1, 2007
~=Random Thoughts=~
~in my veins runs cola~
this came to my mind after drinking another bottle of 'pop cola' right before midnight… i just realize that i guess i'm becoming more addicted drinking whatever 'softdrinks' i can get from the freezer of our sari-sari store… if i'm not in the mood to control myself… i'll be drinking one every meal… then one more before i go to sleep… then more… i even want to drink more after finishing a bottle… i'm lucky i can still stop myself from indulging too much… and more lucky because it's not those alcoholic drinks which are stored on the same freezer…
~running away, won't just work~
i'm definitely aware of that… it crosses my mind last night, but instead of running… i turn around and try to face the painful(maybe) truth thats waiting for me… but i just don't want to run… leaving all those memories of pains and happiness… our memories?.. is it really the reason why i don't want to give up?.. or i'm just using it to hide that i'm still in love with her… that i still love her after all of those things that she had done in the past… i guess the only way is to run… but not to escape… i'm going to run so i can catch her again… and stop her from running away from me…
~first year on college~
it's like a damn year… wasting my life… my time… i just don't know where to get the inspiration and strength that i need… i felt like i was on my darkest time… not giving a damn about my acads… going to school just to say that i'm going to school… now i'm on the sunset of a dark year… a year of evil things and stupidity… waiting for a new day to start again… to start as a new person… a better one… i wish you're here to enjoy this sunset with me… i never thought it'll be this breathtaking…
~God has set me free~
i never felt that way before… he joined me in one of the saddest night that i had faced… it just started by whispering one worship song… before i know it, i'm singing my heart out… songs came after one another… joy overflowed… happiness overthrown my sadness and bitterness… its just… one of those things that words can never explain… my mind was filled with positiveness… i never thought that i'll be sleeping w/ a smile that night…
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