how long can you carry your cross…

 ~=Chapter 5 Household (April 30, 2007)=~

the activity was held at our house… ehermm… mag tatagalog n nga lng akoh… mas masaya mag kwento ng YFC activities pag tagalog eh… hehe… so aun nga smin ginanap… nkakapanibago xe rare lng n magkaron ng isang activity s bahay… tsaka medyo mdami cla pumunta… d akoh ready n gnun cla kdami dadating… pero mas ok un.. mas maraming pinadala c God… khit medyo magulo ang mainit… ashtig p din… here's the topic n diniscuss nmin…

naglalakad c God at isang guy s isang mahabang daan… like ung mahabang mahaba talaga… then pinadala ni God dun s guy ung cross nia… un dinala nman nung guy… habang sinusundan nia c God… mas lalong bumibigat ung cross n dinadala nia… tapos may mga different things p like nails and thorns ung cross… ang gnawa nung guy binawasan nia ung cross… habang palayo n cla ng palayo tugitigil ung guy pra bawasan ung cross n dnadala nia… then dumating ung point n naisip niang iwanan ung cross… pero naisip nia pinadala s kanya ni God un… kaya tinuloy nia ung pagbubuhat pero binabawasan nia p din ung cross… tumigil c God s harap ng isang cliff… cnbi ni God dun s guy… lagay mo ung cross pra makatawid tau s kbila ng cliff… wala mailagay ung guy kc kakabawas nia nung cross kasya n s palm nia ung buong cross… gnun n kaliit… aun dun n natapos ung story… ang questions ay idescribe mo ung sarili mong cross? and hangang saan mo madadala ung cross mo?..

~= mga reactions at sharings= ~

"don't be depressed, sarili mu lng nman ang kalaban mo eh…"

- gege n nagbabalik

"bkit b tau nabubuhay… bkit b may mundo?.. nabubuhay tayo pra makilala ntin c God…"

- cheche

"swerte akoh dhil d gnun kbigat ung cross koh… kaso isang kamay lng ung gnagamit kung pambuhat… ung isang kamay koh bc s mga walang kwentang bagay… but now i learned to use both of my hands to carry my cross…"

- myself (naks…)

"kung may mkita taung nalaglag n pins or nails… wag mo lng iwasan.. pulutin mo na… kc bka pagbalik mo tsaka mo maapakan…"

- tin tin

"ung cross ko, puno ng pictures ng family, friends at mga k-YFC ko… nilagay un ni God dun pra mapagkuhanan ko ng strenght kapag nghihina n ko…"

- alvin w/ his new hairstyle and guitar

"mahirap sbihin pero hangang makakaya, kakayanin"

- answer halos ng lahat s second question

"khit kunti lng ung food mapagkakasya nmin un… YFC yan eh…"

- me to my mother after ng activity (hahaha)

"nandyan b c vanessa hudgens???"

- sms ko kay ate che after nung activity (hehehe…)

"d n ko nkpagstrum… ang skit n ng kamay ko… hehehe…"

- alvin after ng opening worship (bago nga gitara mo…)

"galingan mo pag bless ng food kuya vj…"

- michael to me bago ako magclose at bless ng food

"ang bait nman ng batang to, mano ng mano…"

- may mother to alvin (aukong maniwala… haha..)

"so nkakamiss din pla ang LRT-2…"

were supposed to have a jogging today… but for some unknown reasons… it was cancelled… well actually im not expected to come…(coz my reply was sent around midnight haha…) so they don't send me an sms that the jogging is cancelled… what am i supposed to do?.. unfortunately i can't go back to bed coz i'm more than ready to go out of our house… (actually… i already felt its cancelled coz no one replies to me… but my instinct teels me to still take a bath) so i just decided to go to PUP… its been two weeks(or more, i think) since the last time i went there… nothings going to change anyway(except that i need to change my jogging pants… i don't want to go to school on jogging pants[except PE classes]) so i started my school day daily routine... walking to the jeep station, taking a jeepney ride up to Santolan and lastly riding LRT-2 up to Pureza station…(i miss sleeping while on the jeep… huhuhu…) the best part is the LRT ride… it's somewhat… hmm… how should i say it… nostalgic i guess… the coldness of the steel framework of the train where i lean on every ride… my reflection on the glassdoor… the passengers who silently observe each other… i never thought, after riding on the train for almost a year, that i'll miss it… or do i really miss it?.. is it really the ride that i really miss?.. well… maybe… i just don't know… and i guess its better that i don't know… but 'feeling' is different from 'knowing' right?.. i better stop my nonsense thoughts right now…

and by the way i got my sched for next sem… and im a little dissapointed… Logic classes which i need to take this sem clashes on my sched… bad luck… i hope the college will give us some consideration and give our class our own Logic class… 3/4 of the class failed anyway so i guess its possible… and oh i don't have classes on monday & thursday unless theres no other way but to take a logic class on one of those two…

poem mastery lvl1

heres one of my first poems… actually i did some minor changes last nyt coz some words just don't seem ryt… but i tried to keep the changes as small as i can  so the emotions of the piece will still be the same… i wrote this when i was in second year high school… it's actually inspired by my ex-classmate, ex-crush Christine V… well wherever you are ryt now… youre there… hahaha… do you expect me to say something?… well anyway… Jebsen want to say hi… hahaha… i think i have to shut my mouth now…

Smile (Edited)  

i know that this is not right

'cause i'll just make a suicide

'cause you are on heaven

and i am in hell

we are thousand miles apart

evrytime i tried to get close to you

it feels like you're getting more far from me

i'll write the greatest poem

just to be with you

but i know there's nothing i can do

for me to get close to you

i'm not surrendering in this battle

but i'm not asking you to love me too

i'm just asking for a smile or two

 there you go… i told you i'm not that good… hahaha… bye bye…

first post and the rest is history…

on the n th time in my life… i plan to change… to be more mature i guess… but what do i actually mean when i said "to be more mature"… hundred things to consider huh… well i actually do this sort of things periodically.. hehe… and as of now… i never changed… maybe a bit but a lot far from what i want myself to be… but hey…  its not that bad to try again ryt?… well to kick-off my life  changing move, i made this blog!!! (celebrates by himself…) so that don't sound exciting huh… then get out of here… hehe… i don't mean that one… and by the way i'll be adding my blogging history… yeah i love reminiscing my past…

auvryvrae's blogging history (all of them are on friendster blogs) 

L.O.S.T. - i made this blog a year before i heard of the show who had the same name… i made this when i'm in 2nd year highschool… that's around 2003… anyway i'm not that serious when i made this one… and again it doesn't have anything to do with the suspense drama thing…

sarcasticsmiles - my first serious blog… inspired by a song from Hale's (yah i was a Haler before) first album… it's just a normal blog… but sometimes i try to pirate some ideas from one of my friends' blog…

40% Evil - i deleted 'sarcasticsmiles' and replace it with this one… no post for this blog… i just made it to fill my blog page ^_^… and oh the title is my result from an online test…

Hamsilog - i deleted my friendster account… and this blog was born after i made my new account… actually its just a template and may not be considered a blog…

Sweet Winter Teardrops - when i finally got the time to continue 'Hamsilog' i renamed it w/ this name… i hardly have the time to post… and most of the time end up experimenting on this blog… (putting shoutboxes, audios, etc…) as far as i remember i just made a total of five or six post on this blog… the blog was deleted after i registered here…

and finally my new blog… i hope i can have more time and ideas so i can post more things here… and i plan to post the poems that i made when i was in highschool… it's not that good… but im proud of them… hehehe… i'll try to do my best in this one… bye bye…